Roadbenders

I just realized that I have not listened to any music this week, except for a chance hearing of “Rocket Man” on the way home yesterday. It seems related to why I’ve felt like I’ve been walking around lost inside my own brain, visibility low.

To lighten the load a bit this week, I left off of my journalling duties. Today is Saturday. Last night, I drank wine and beer and fell asleep at nine pm. My television’s tube finally burned out, so I have to have a funeral today. That TV has been a prominent subject in my paintings
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I am listening for my water to boil in the other room. I need tea. Yesterday was long. My reception at the new place was very warm. The day started with a two and a half hour meeting, but quickly improved. Someone blew up a house, and started shooting at firefighters. Because of it, it
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Today is day one of The Contract. If I refer to it again, it shall be known as The Contract instead of The Office or The Job, because I call my studio my office, and because I have two other jobs. Anyway. I went to bed at ten fifteen pm last night. I must have
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It was positively warm today. I am anxious, so I am hovering between tasks, not accomplishing anything, but surfing diligently and without purpose. I know I’m just freezing up because I have so much to do, and because I’ve been way overcaffeinating, which is a huge “trigger” to use an oft over-used phrase. But it’s
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Had a client meeting this morning, it went well. Came home at noon to find an email from the recruiter saying “you got the job…call me” so I did and I do have the job, and they wouldn’t let me start any later than Monday (even though I’ve been waiting nearly a month to get
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I had many dreams last night. After I left this house in my dream, I was walking down a residential street in Long Beach, some time in the early morning. The sky was deeply cloudy and the sun was breaking through over the ocean behind me. I turned forward again and continued walking. I realized
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It’s amazing what a good night’s sleep and good nourishment can do for one’s outlook. I had two whole glasses of wine last night, and fell asleep comfortably. Today I awakened chipper and full of ambition. I have a job interview today at 2pm (the one I was supposed to have two weeks ago) and
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I talked to my Mamma for a couple of hours last night. I had forgotten her birthday, which I think is unconscionable, but is also par for the course for every single birthday of hers that I have been alive for. So it isn’t as though I wasn’t meeting expectations. Honestly, I have always thought
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I am listening to Le Mystere des voix Bulgares, a Bulgarian women’s choir I found from an AskMetafilter thread. The song “Polegnala e todora” is my absolute favourite. It’s polyphonic. I wish I knew exactly what that meant. They sing without vibrato. I’ve dug out a lot of my frou-frou new age Tibetan bells crap
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I’m so glad the interview went badly yesterday. I was so relieved. One of those situations where I left with a clear conscience because I knew I did my best, and knew I wouldn’t get it. And yesterday, when I said I really wanted the position, that was a conditional statement like “If I had
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New camera arrived this morning. This is a mint condition Polaroid Land 250 – easily the nicest one I’ve ever seen, and I paid nine dollars (including shipping) for it. I am stoked. This will probably become my default medium-format camera, and I will likely turn one or two of the others into pinhole cameras
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I told myself yesterday that no matter how much snow fell, if my interviewer was in the office at 9am, I would make the drive and show up for the interview. I can write a lot of exposition, but it can be summed up in two words – okay, one. Hellish. Oh my god. The
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My stuff is up at Polaroid (look for “Brianna Privett”). I have a stack of new emulsion lifts I’m doing this week, plus about twenty five images that have yet to be added to the gallery at brianna.org. Now that it’s up, I’m wondering why I picked those exact images to submit. In the brain
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Here are the two cyanotypes that turned out in today’s session. I printed four, two with negatives from Polaroid 665 P/N BW film and two with digital negatives I made a few years ago for printing kallitypes. The digital negatives have WAY more contrast than the regular ones, largely because I edited them to be
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So, right after I am talking to J. about the poisonous nature of potassium ferrocyanide, I look over to see my cat LICKING last night’s test photograph that I had brought out to show him. Which is still TOTALLY COVERED IN CHEMICALS. Jesus, I am so glad I don’t have kids. I threw the test
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I mixed up a batch of photo chemicals last night around eight, ferric ammonium citrate, potassium dichromate, and…what was the other one…oh yeah, the poisonous one, potassium ferrocyanide. I only made a little mess. Hopefully none of us are poisoned yet. Anyway, today I was really looking forward to contact printing some cyanotypes, but we
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Thanks for all your comments on the last entry, guys. I can’t believe how that one little bit of news from Polaroid motivated me yesterday. I did so. much. work. on my gallery yesterday. Now I just need to make a huge film order and I’ll be content on the photography front. By the way,
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Got two bits of good news. Polaroid’s website is going to include some of my altered Polaroid work as part of their artist’s portfolios. The communication was really spectacular from the company, and of course I’m thrilled to pieces about it. Number two, I have an interview and Big Financial Behemoth on Thursday morning. Wish
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Today’s to do list. • Clean out office and set up photo station • Write real journal entry • Strips! Hagar first. • 3,000 words, baby. Every day. • Do some yoga, once J. gets out of the living room for five minutes. • House cleaning!! Bathrooms, floors, kitchen, dust and tidy library • Maybe,
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