To lighten the load a bit this week, I left off of my journalling duties. Today is Saturday. Last night, I drank wine and beer and fell asleep at nine pm. My television’s tube finally burned out, so I have to have a funeral today. That TV has been a prominent subject in my paintings Read more >>

I am listening for my water to boil in the other room. I need tea. Yesterday was long. My reception at the new place was very warm. The day started with a two and a half hour meeting, but quickly improved. Someone blew up a house, and started shooting at firefighters. Because of it, it Read more >>

Today is day one of The Contract. If I refer to it again, it shall be known as The Contract instead of The Office or The Job, because I call my studio my office, and because I have two other jobs. Anyway. I went to bed at ten fifteen pm last night. I must have Read more >>

It was positively warm today. I am anxious, so I am hovering between tasks, not accomplishing anything, but surfing diligently and without purpose. I know I’m just freezing up because I have so much to do, and because I’ve been way overcaffeinating, which is a huge “trigger” to use an oft over-used phrase. But it’s Read more >>

Had a client meeting this morning, it went well. Came home at noon to find an email from the recruiter saying “you got the job…call me” so I did and I do have the job, and they wouldn’t let me start any later than Monday (even though I’ve been waiting nearly a month to get Read more >>

I had many dreams last night. After I left this house in my dream, I was walking down a residential street in Long Beach, some time in the early morning. The sky was deeply cloudy and the sun was breaking through over the ocean behind me. I turned forward again and continued walking. I realized Read more >>

It’s amazing what a good night’s sleep and good nourishment can do for one’s outlook. I had two whole glasses of wine last night, and fell asleep comfortably. Today I awakened chipper and full of ambition. I have a job interview today at 2pm (the one I was supposed to have two weeks ago) and Read more >>

I talked to my Mamma for a couple of hours last night. I had forgotten her birthday, which I think is unconscionable, but is also par for the course for every single birthday of hers that I have been alive for. So it isn’t as though I wasn’t meeting expectations. Honestly, I have always thought Read more >>

I am listening to Le Mystere des voix Bulgares, a Bulgarian women’s choir I found from an AskMetafilter thread. The song “Polegnala e todora” is my absolute favourite. It’s polyphonic. I wish I knew exactly what that meant. They sing without vibrato. I’ve dug out a lot of my frou-frou new age Tibetan bells crap Read more >>

I’m so glad the interview went badly yesterday. I was so relieved. One of those situations where I left with a clear conscience because I knew I did my best, and knew I wouldn’t get it. And yesterday, when I said I really wanted the position, that was a conditional statement like “If I had Read more >>